I Am the Gate

I am consciousness, I am freedom

There is no person—the ego is an assumed, illusory center. 'Who am I?' is asked not to get an answer but to transcend the question. When asked intensely, the questioner disappears. The relevant question is not 'Who?' but 'What is?'—the existential, not the personal. Only being exists, not beings. I am consciousness, I am freedom: consciousness has no center, no inside or outside. Existence is one undivided whole.

Neo-sannyas: The answer to human crisis

Neo-sannyas: the answer to human crisis. Sannyas is not serious—life is play, not work. Convert work into play. No qualifications needed because it's a play. No obligations: sannyas is the last decision—now live in indecision, in freedom. Insecurity means untethered to the past. Real renunciation is not property but knowledge, desires, hopes—everything that comes from the past. Sannyas means living unplanned, unknown, free.

Occult devices and the spiritual search

Occult devices and the spiritual search. The mala, the orange clothes, the new name, the picture—devices with hidden reasons. The picture is not really mine—no picture of emptiness is possible. Concentrating on the picture tunes you to the master. Some reasons must remain occult, secret—like roots underground. After three months you can't be without the mala. The locket becomes empty with deepening consciousness. I deny being a guru but not your being a disciple—discipleship is inner openness.

Love, grace and divinity

Love, grace and divinity. The divine doesn't exist—the divine IS existence. Everything is divine, known or unknown. Proving God exists is nonsense—existence exists. God and existence are synonyms. 'God' means you can be in intimate relationship with existence—dialogue, love, bridge. Jews write G-D, dropping O (zero, perfection, totality) because no word conveys the whole. Existence is not indifferent—when you know it, you call it God. Love, grace and divinity are qualities of existence itself.

Meditation and the paths to inner awakening

Meditation and the paths to inner awakening. Meditation is adventure into the unknown—cannot be cultivated, cannot be known beforehand. It happens TO the mind, not IN the mind—like death happens to life. Meditation is psychic death: mind with small 'm' dies, Mind with capital 'M' remains. Consciousness without walls—open sky. The room (emptiness) remains when walls are removed; it becomes infinite. Kundalini relates to meditation as energy awakening. Meditation is consciousness without mind.

The secrets of spiritual explosion

The secrets of spiritual explosion. Explosion means discontinuity with the past—no causal link. The new is not caused by the old. Material explosion is destructive (disorder); spiritual explosion is creative (something new). You cannot do anything positively—your cooperation is needed negatively, through absence. Your not-being allows the explosion. The mind cannot understand explosion because explosion destroys the mind. You can only help by being vacant. The chain reaction: one explosion triggers others.

The occult mysteries of initiation

The occult mysteries of initiation. Man is asleep—waking is also sleep. Dreaming continues twenty-four hours. We project dreams on reality and never see what is. Initiation means intimate contact with one who is awakened. Maya (illusion) doesn't mean the world isn't there—it means our seeing is colored by dreams. When awakened, the projected world disappears; an objective world appears. The master is a gate: passing through him, you wake from the dream. Initiation is not ritual but transmission of awakening.

I am the gate

I am the gate. Spiritual knowledge can't be expressed—esoteric groups are specially trained to receive it. Einstein had only six people he could communicate with in mathematics; spiritual knowledge is harder. Esoteric groups mediate between buddha and the world. Jesus was crucified because no esoteric group existed—misunderstanding was inevitable. Buddha and Mahavira were not crucified because India had esoteric groups. I am the gate: the master is the passage, not the destination. Groups trained for a particular teacher bridge the gap.

Even In a Single Moment

Awakening is possible even in a single moment—generally it never happens that way. Group work is needed: a collective effort makes awakening more possible. The order of sannyas was created as group work. Even if one awakens, he can create a chain. Buddhist and Jaina orders were outward sannyas; inwardly they were group work continuing for lives. People belonging to me from previous lives work more easily—they've already worked with these techniques. Even in a single moment: awakening doesn't require time, only intensity.